Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Sometimes.


Emma got her first legitimately scraped knee during the weekend.
Her little knee is red and pink with a bit of healing-yellow color.

Apparently, she cried for about a minute and a half, then when she was asked, “Emma, did you hurt the ground? Is the sidewalk okay?” she spent a minute patting the pavement with her tiny hand.
Since then, she’ll point at her knee during bathtime or diaper changes, looking up with a question. She’ll try to scratch at the forming scab.

Don’t touch it, Birdie. It’s a scratch. It’s okay. It happens sometimes.

The day before her knee scrape, she pulled a dining room chair down on top of herself. Eric was in the other room and just as he called – Emma? What are you doing? Be good, please, he heard a crash and a two-second wail. When he reached her, the chair was on the floor and the girl was across the room, bump in the middle of her forehead and smile on her face.

You okay, honey? It happens sometimes.

Don’t think, not for a minute, that Emma’s not a drama queen. She’s a toddler, after all. She gets worked up over two-second delays when she wants goldfish crackers right now.
And don’t think, not for a second, that my heart doesn’t swell and rip itself open every time she bumps her head or falls on her bottom or slips backward off the couch.
And please don’t ever think that we don’t do our best to ward off these minor (and all major) injuries. But let’s be honest here. Emma isn’t a baby anymore. She’s a toddler, and all too soon she’ll be a child. A girl. She walks, she’ll talk soon, she has her own opinions, and she will do her own things. And she will get hurt.
It happens sometimes.

When Emma first started rolling over and reaching for things and earning her first bumps, Eric and I gasped and reached for her and held her and examined her to make sure she was okay. She was our baby, our tiny girl, and was she hurt? Her response to this was always screaming. I’ve been hurt, my parents are worried, this is serious!

Then once she bumped her head on the table and fell over and it took us a second to realize it, so we didn’t gasp and scream.
And neither did Emma. She reached up and pulled herself back up and continued on like nothing happened.
Since then, we make as little fuss as we can about her bumps and scrapes. And she mostly doesn’t notice them, either. If she starts screaming, we’ll quietly make sure she’s okay, we’ll hold her close and kiss her forehead, her hair, her tiny hands, then we’ll lean back and ask her, “Emma! You’re okay, honey. But Birdie, did you hurt the floor? Is the floor okay?” The distraction of checking the floor is (usually) enough to calm her down.
(Let’s be honest, sometimes it’s not. Sometimes she needs cuddles and pooh bear and a long nap. And that’s okay, too.)


Other parents sometimes give us funny looks, when Emma falls at the park or on the sidewalk and we pretend not to notice, and encourage her that nothing happened.
But know what? Sometimes it happens.

And we think it’s better for her to learn now that bumps and scrapes and minor hurts happen sometimes. It saves the tears for the big injuries, the need-mama-now moments, the hold-my-heart-please times.

From the age when I could walk till I was about 12, I had perpetual grass stains and scabs on my knees. My mom spent an embarrassing amount of time washing dirt stains from my clothes. She warned me repeatedly that I would have nasty scars on my knees for the rest of my life. But I’m not afraid of dirt. I’m not afraid to fall.
Sometimes it happens.
And I want that for my children, too.

But I'm starting to realize that it will be far harder to prepare my daughter for a different kind of hurt -- the kind that isn’t physical. And that happens sometimes, too.
Yesterday, as usual, I took Emma – knee scrape and head-bump – to the park. There were two other little girls, older girls, maybe five and seven, playing together with their moms watching from a distance. Emma’s too little to play with these bigger girls, but she’s completely fascinated by them. She likes to walk up as close as possible, touch their hand or their shirt or their game, and smile up in their eyes.

I want her to interact with people, but I don’t want her to interrupt a game she’s too little to play. So I let her walk up to the girls and watch them for just a minute before I told her brightly, Emma, you like these girls, don’t you? Say hi! They’re big girls, and they’re smart and pretty. Look at their fun game! But we don’t want to get in their way. Come on, let’s go down the slide.
She cried for a minute – please, mama, the big girls! – and I pulled her away. We climbed up the park structure. I heard the girls continue to play. Then I heard one of the other mothers speak.

“What did you say?” She walked over to the girls. “Excuse me, that’s not kind or polite. I don’t want to hear you say that ever. Be kind.” She walked back to her bench and I heard the little girl whisper angrily to her friend.

I don’t like that baby.

And my heart swelled and ripped and I watched my curly-haired little girl run awkwardly to the swings, stop to clap her hands, then point up at the rubber seat.


There are plenty of people in this world who I don’t particularly like, and plenty who don’t like me. And as much as it hurts, I know the same will be true for my daughter.
She will be ignored. She will be rejected. She will be cast out of groups. She will likely know the heart-hurt of losing a friend she thought was close, she thought was trustworthy. She will feel abandoned and forgotten and lonely.
All I can do is pray and hold her and try to model the right response.

Be now and always kind. Keep a tender heart, my love. Sometimes hurt happens.

A while later, after the other children had gone, I turned away for a moment to put something in our stroller and I heard Emma’s two-second wail from where I left her. I’m right here, honey. It’s okay.

A minute later, I saw a brand new scrape on her forehead.
Oh. That’s what happened in the twenty seconds I walked away from her. She barely even noticed. And it’s okay.

Because sometimes it happens.



Thursday, March 14, 2013

Coming Soon: Toddlers and Planes



It's happening, everybody.

We're taking Miss Thing on a plane tomorrow.
Two planes, actually.
Please send prayers. Also whiskey. Also Pooh Bear. 

I'll (hopefully) compile a list of tips and tricks about traveling with toddlers to post next week when we get back. Oh, the suspense. I know. I know.

In the meantime, I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that this girl who's got her own plan for everything and who always DOES HER OWN THING ALWAYS will be willing to sit in my lap for three and a half hours. Not likely. About that whiskey.




Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Blerg.

Where the what have I been?

I ask myself that on a nearly daily basis. Every day, I wake up with grand plans for things to accomplish (today I will finally update my blog and post that book review! today I will finish crafting that toy for Emma that I started in January! today I will update my Etsy shop! 

And most evenings I find myself not willing to do more than wash a load of diapers and make scones for breakfast. Or, you know

But since I'm still not done with that book review I promised a friend a month ago (because they're hard to write, man), and since I've been grossly neglecting my Etsy shop (because TAXES, yuck), and because I have a serious backlog of blogformation, I'm throwing caution to the wind and not doing things in order and posting an update of our lives before finishing what I've already started.

Because, really, we have a pretty awesome life and I miss this place.

But more importantly, because who is this girl?



Who picked out that outfit above. We had a different shirt on her and she opened her shirt drawer and picked up the silky one and carried it on her head until we changed her. And then she picked out those giraffe shoes which are actually a size too big, but she sat on the floor and tried to put it on her foot over and over until we put them on to prove to her they were too big and she stood up and clomped away and wouldn't let us take them off.

This girl who wants to do nothing but be outside, all day, every day, ALL THE TIME.
Preferably on a swing.



And who if she has to be inside, only wants to READ ALL THE BOOKS OVER AND OVER. 



And who makes faces at the camera.






And who loves yellow dandelions, but doesn't understand the fluffy ones. So she runs off, waving it in the air, and the puffy bits fly through the air behind her and she has no idea how beautiful it is. How beautiful she is.



Lest you think it's all dandelion-fluff-fairy dust, though.

Sometimes, meals look like this:


But yesterday, meals looked like this:


And it was no you will not put that oatmeal in my mouth I will pick it out with my fingers and throw it on the floor do you not SEE the teeth I'm growing? You suck, lady, and WHERE'S MY DADDY?

And then I took off her shoes and apparently I had put one on wrong (?), because her TOE WAS BENT BACKWARDS AND IT WAS RED AND SHE SCREAMED. 

And I texted Eric this picture:

 

and said something like: oh my god Emma's toe is broken she's screaming and justlookatit! OHMYGOD. 

And he was in class, so he ran out of class and called me and by that time she had watched a video of puppies on youtube and was giggling and didn't even notice when I squeezed her toe and so of course I figured out it wasn't broken but OHMYGOD.



And then there was naptime and Pooh Bear and all was right in the world.



At least for right now.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Valentine's Day

Oh, yes, I did.






Found here.

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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Snoozy


It may seem like we've been sleeping over here. 
Seeing as, you know, it's been ages since I've posted anything (how?!

Blogger told me a few months ago that I'd reached my photo limit, so I've been trying a few things out, and NOTHING'S WORKING probably because of this. But for some reason when I tried to test it out by adding a photo of Emma sleeping it let me do it. So I'm running with it. 

I don't know if blogger is going to give up and let me get back to normal, or if I'm going to have to spend a couple more hours that I don't have to try to figure out this problem (tips, anyone?). It's probably something really easy to fix, so forgive me for being technologically ignorant.

In other news, Thanksgiving. 
And Christmas.
And Emma's first birthday.
And 2013. 

Seems as though we have a bit to catch up on. 
So though it seems we've been off sleeping, for now I'll just admit that our family succumbed to the easy pitfall of too-busy-to-write-a-few-sentences, and I let this blog snooze away. And when I wasn't too busy to write a few sentences, I was probably snoozing away. Or trying to get Emma to snooze away, since a) it's hard to sleep when you're growing molars and b) I'm not ready for Emma to drop from two naps to one. 

But, you know, back again.